Thursday, April 18, 2013

Isolation

My son is probably my best friend. Sometimes I just cry because I just love this child so much that my heart just might burst at any moment.

As a single mom, I've struggled with feelings of isolation. I'm constantly feeling like I'm in the School of Moms, surrounded by all of these cliques, none of which I fit into. Although I've always struggled with making friends, my difficulties have been magnified through motherhood. I don't even know where to start when it comes to making friends. I just don't seem to fit in with most "Mommy Groups". I don't know if it's because I'm a single mom and constantly feeling like I'm not as good as the moms who chose their motherhood instead of having it thrust upon them (although, I would never change the way things happened and will not hesitate to say that having a baby saved my life). I usually feel like I'm being looked down on or don't know what I'm doing. I see myself struggling with feelings of jealousy towards other moms because they seem to fit in so well. I hate feeling isolated.

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